Moving out and Moving on

    It has been now 2 years since I have wrote in this blog but let me tell you a lot has happened since then and soon after reading this you will see why I have been so absent on here. I am in no shape or form a professional but I do hope that this post will help someone if you are going through losing a family member or even a friend, scared about moving on or if you are wanting a fresh start but scared about taking those first steps then this is a blog post you need to read. I have always wanted to help others and writing is one of the ways I feel like I can fully express myself.

    Well first off let me start with in November of 2020 my dad passed away. I realize that I made this blog after he passed but I wanted to spend some time writing about this because I feel like a lot of people have lost someone they love and sometimes it is helpful to know you are not alone in working through your grief. Honestly grief is a rough thing. I still am going through all the stages of grief and honestly in this moment I am still ok but not ok if that makes sense. I have my moments where I can think about something my dad and I used to do and it makes me smile and I can look back and love the memory but there is also moments where I hurt and I go into a really dark place. I do have a lot of people to lean on and pull me out of that dark place but I know a lot of people don't have that one person to go to. If you don't have that one person you can go to I am always here to listen. 

    After my dad had passed away Andrew and I were faced with financial issues because we had 3 people's income paying for all of our bills and now it was up to just Andrew and I. Around this time Andrew's mom was making her plans of moving down south more of a reality. She wanted to sell her house and move to North Carolina. so Andrew and I decided to sell our house. Now this process was a long one let me tell you, we still had a lot to do with our house like fixing it up. We had a lot of things to fix in the house and we had to still paint some of the walls before even putting the house up for sale. Around September we were finally ready to sell our house and it was a quick process which I was so thankful for. Our house was only on the market for 4 days when someone wanted to buy it. Around this time Andrew was dealing with some health issues so it was still a very stressful time but that is another story for another time. I plan on making a blog post about that time as well. He is doing good now just in case anyone is really curious.

    So we were finally moved into Andrew's mom's house and we could finally focus on our wedding. We got married on October 22nd of 2022. It was a beautiful day! I was so nervous about the weather because it was at the end of October and the weather is not always so great towards the end of October. Honestly I would have had a Halloween wedding but Andrew didn't want to 😂 I am going to make a separate Blog about the wedding and of course put some pictures I just feel like there was a lot to say about it and I really don't want to make this blog post 20 years long. I am so happy to finally be married to the love of my life and best friend! We didn't really have a traditional honeymoon but it was still amazing. I was alone with my husband for a whole weekend and that hasn't happened in a very long time so it was amazing. 

    So the whole point of this blog that I hope was put across because I go everywhere 😁 is that moving on is scary and yes sometimes it is hard but it is not impossible. At times it may feel impossible and hopeless but trust me when I say that feeling does not last long. Sometimes you just have to cry it out or just talk to someone if that is possible. Sometimes I do not feel like talking to anyone about things so I just turn on my music and have a little therapy session with my favorite artist's. Since I was a teenager I have done this and it has helped me so much! Also a thing that has helped me on this moving on journey is therapy. I can not stress enough how much therapy has helped me. It did take a minute for me to find my right therapist but I honestly feel like she is another girlfriend who gives me honest advice and does not judge me no matter what. I am using talkspace because I never have time for appointments to be honest and it is so convenient to just turn on my computer and talk to my therapist. 

You are strong.

You are amazing.

You belong.

And it is ok to not be ok💖